Just One of Those Days...

Bailey, 6 Months Old

Bailey turned himself around in his Bouncer

Kiley & Brendan Trick or Treating.

Kiley's Halloween Gingerbread House

Brendan's Halloween Gingerbread House

Look Mom, Bailey is Flying...LOL

Our Precious Little Superman!

Bumblebee, Spiderman & Superman

The Loves of Our Life! :o)

Ahhh! Brothers! :o)

So this weekend was a little harder than I expected. It just kinda caught be off guard. We went to a Halloween Carnival and we all had a good time. The kids had a blast and that was great! And then I tried to keep myself and the kids busy, as to not to have to think about the missing link to our family, and we went to make "Halloween" Gingerbread Houses here on base. Then it was time to trick or treat and it just HIT me...I am here and doing this all by myself. I always know I am alone, but there are those moments that it's just WAY more apparent than others. As we walked down the street I was carrying Bailey so he would be warm and had Kiley & Brendan and it was just Depressing...all the families and friends running together. All the parents taking pictures of their kids while they walked together...It was horrible. I think I was the most bitter that I had been since the first 2 weeks Korry was gone. I felt sick to my stomache. I know this is like my own personal pitty party and I am sorry!

Anyway, I stayed inside yesterday and didn't even attempt going anywhere...I didn't feel very well, but the real reason was I really didn't want to see anyone and I wanted to just get past "This" Feeling! I hate it!!! I like being in control of my feelings and knowing when things are gonna hurt...Like I KNOW Thanksgiving and Christmas are gonna suck...I just know that, but Halloween, I was not expecting it to be a hard on the emotions kinda day! I knew it would be more difficult since I was taking 3 kids by myself trick or treating, but emotional...NO! But it WAS! It was Craziness!

Anyway, Bailey had his 6 month appointment today and he is doing great! He is in the 75th percentile in weight and height and in the 90th in his head...I don't know what it is about my boys, but they have big heads! But he weighed 18 lbs. So he is doing great! He will be crawling before I know it and I want him to, but I am going to have to start baby proofing again.

Aside from the meltdown over the weekend the kids had a Great time on Halloween. Kiley was a Bumblebee, Brendan was Spiderman and Bailey was Superman! I was very protected with all 3 of my superhero's! Kiley decided she wanted to be the "Girl" version of Bumblee from Transformers, so she was a "Superhero" too! ;o) Anyway, time is passing and we are progressing, so that is good news! I am excited for November to be over, because there is actually things to look forward to in December, November I feel is going to DRAG...so I am not excited for that!

But December should be fun and should go by quickly, lets hope! My Mom is coming to visit for about 5 days the 2nd week of December and I am very excited for Tops in Blue to come, they will be here on the 9th. So those 2 things are going to be lots of fun! :o)

Anyway, I am sorry for the depressing 2 paragraphs, but I hope everyone had a Great Halloween and has a great November since I have not been the best "blogger" I don't know when the next post will be, but hopefully not 2-3 months between them! ;o)